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Told you so...

What? I didnt leave to hear this shit hahah. You know what I mean?!

When I started this blog, I even said it myself, that it may fall to the wayward side. Now that things have settled down I lose my train of thought. Let’s just say that things are a bit different know.

Time changes and things go on around you no matter what. You can not stop what has happened or what is happening. No regrets. When you live life in the fast lane you get jaded by the fact that people around you no longer matter. FALSE! Don’t believe the hype! The most important thing is that you have people around you! Being alone and suffering is one thing, but being surrounded by people you love is like the most positive thought coming into FRUITION! I can tell you that if it weren’t for the people around me on the daily, I would not be the man who I am today. It’s hard to realize the facts, but life is difficult. There are things you MUST do to challenge yourself and to challenge others. If life was so easy, it would be boring. No one likes being bored yeah?

Change up! Be fruitful to your people, do not allow yourself to wallow in the nothingness of easy. Today, I had a talk with my mom. She told me that sometimes in life you need to be selfish. She agreed that watching out for yourself is the most important thing. How can you be able to help others when you can’t help yourself. As selfish as it sounds, its almost completely true. You have to be able to believe in yourself, and trust yourself, before you can go on and do the same towards other people.

I don’t usually do this, but a lot of my friends do it so I gave it a stab. I looked at my horoscope today, which totally did not make sense. But I looked at my profile, which totally made sense…
“With an acute attention to detail, the Virgo is the sign in the zodiac most dedicated to serving. Their deep sense of the humane leads them to caregiving like no other, while their methodical approach to life ensures that nothing is missed. The Virgo is often gentle and delicate, preferring to step back and analyze before moving ahead.”

I’m at the stage where I’ve just taken that step back, now I’m moving toward where I am supposed to be.

psychology

Ok, I lied… There is something weird and refreshing about letting yourself be you. There’s a certain amount of personal reward system that tells you that, wait, this is a good thing. I also think there is something ratifying about writing your life down for the whole internetz to see. Don’t call me a weirdo, emo or whatever, just listen.

I am blessed to be in the situations I find myself in on a daily. I have a family that can, at times, be as awkward as they are loving. I have TRUE BLUE friends that I KNOW will be there when it matters. I’m extremely blessed to have had an education past high school. I have a job… [end] LOLZ.

I was talking with a friend the other day about certain things that happen for a reason. I really didn’t get to the main point, as I digress on a lot of things usually, but I put a couple of learning experiences together.. Someone told me that every emotion, disease, action, thought, smell, appearance.. etc. exists in EVERYONE. But something has to happen for that person in order for that part to come to life, albeit a drug addiction, a physical change, a mental/psychological change, a change of environment, literally any change. When that event happens, the person activates a certain reaction. There are a lot of people that believe most schizophrenics are schizo way because they were former drug abusers. I don’t know the scientific facts, but I wouldn’t pass judgement…

What it comes down to is, Newton’s Third Law of Motion exists more on a spiritual level even more-so than a physical level. In order for you to be happy, you must have felt sadness at a time in your life. For you to feel euphoric, you must have experienced pain. In order for you to release YOURSELF, you must have locked yourself within somehow. Everyone says these things, but they are on some level true! Take things with a grain of salt. There are always two sides to the story. To be able to fully understand both sides and connect them together is something that is extremely hard.

Me and this friend went on to talking about rumination. Most people don’t realize that when you start dwelling and thinking about a situation over and over in your head you’re in the process of rumination. It’s a double edged sword basically. You can have the side that unlocks all your inner peace or you can have the edge that burns a scar in your mental psyche. One part is reflection. You look at yourself and the situation, what needs to happen and what can be left out. The other part is brooding. You begin brooding when you start to dwell about the “what-ifs”… This attracts a lot of negative energy and thoughts on most occasions and can seriously be unhealthy for you. For most who participate in brooding while in rumination it causes a lot of stress… Stress that can really be ignored by keeping your mind off of things. Easier said than done right? Well, basically keep yourself physically busy, and your mind will follow.

Let’s put it this way, MY ROOM IS SPOTLESS RIGHT NOW! lol.

So now I’m sitting at my desk, clean as it will ever be for the next couple of weeks, writing on a blog that I’m sure no more than 12 people read, writing down random bits of emotional theory. Why? Because it helps me release. It’s keeping my mind off of things. A lot of people say that you should write down your feelings instead of bottling them up. I think you should bottle up your feelings and toss them aside. Write your thoughts. No one wants to hear how you felt when you were at your happiest. They’ll just get jealous. No one wants to read how you’re so down on yourself because of this and that. It will only get people to think of pity, or negative thoughts and get depressed. So if you must write down your thought (or feelings :sigh) write them in a way that others will learn.

I respect authors so much because they transcend their feelings and write down their thoughts.

funny thing about that...

Yeah sorry I haven’t been blogging lately there some shit that’s been happening and honestly I let this blog fall to the wayside.
Things that you should know? lol I have no idea.

After graduation I’ve been working full time at WFM. I went to Hawaii with Rea to spend our 2nd Year Anniversary, and also to relax after a long DESERVED 19 years in school! I just feel that things are way different. Times a’changin as they would say. There are things about life that I never thought of that I need to think of now. Growing up is way more different than I pictured as a little kid. And not to dwell on the past or be emo or anything but the easiest times are always going to be the toughest.

So I will write again.. maybe with some informtion that will actually pertain to you and not to my psychological well being.. Thanx! Late!

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